I'm so CONFUSED

huuuaa,, i'm so confused now..
wonder wat will i do to solve this prob..

honestly, i still LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
but, heart's broken into pieces.
and, i juz dunnO wat to do..
he's kindda my first love,
and u kno,
it's hard to forget the first one.
tho i kno, first love is not our eternal love.
but yea..
it's just hard..

well, this is the weak side of me.
i dunn wanna hurt him.
even by doin this, i'm hurtin myself..

huff.. puff..

hei bloggie.. can u help me wit this?
but i dunn think u can. hwaxhaxhax..
u kno, my bf doesnt seem to love me anymore.
he's got friendster, but when i send him comments, he never replies..
how sad? i kno aye..
umm, i've seen his profile on friendster, and yea.
he replies other girl's comments. his classmate..
and the worst thing is, she got my bf's photo on her album..

whoaa..
and u kno wat, he tell her stuff.
but he doesnt tell me stuff.
and these things really hurt me.
he doesnt trust me, i think.
well, coz if he does, he will tell me more stuff
NOT TO HIS GIRL MATE

i dunno wat the heck is wrong wit him.
is it ok for me to be jealous??!!
he's my bf man. not hers..
wtf?

i'm so sad that i find him trusting another girl instead of his own girlfriend.
it's ok for me if he trusts his boy mates. BUT..
another girl!!

i feel so useless now. he's not FAIR. !
probably i dont exist in his life anymore.
never says 'i love you' to me..
never says 'i miss you' to me..

well well..
seems like worlds gonna end to me.
if he stays like this..
man.. i cant stand it anymore.
IT'S OVER

i'm tired wit this kind of rela.
no trust, no love from him.
ppfffttt....



hei bloggie, u kno.
seems like i cant trust boys now..
i'm gonna go back to the old me..
dunn care anymore.
stuff boys..
he's hurt me too deep.
even i still love him,
if he doesnt trust me and doesnt love me anymore..
wat's the point being together then..

HE REALLY GETS ME ON MY NERVES

Hhhh

i'm tired wit it..

deeply hurt now.

deeply hurt..

FUN . FUN . FUNN .. !!

Today,

me, mona, lili, and ben walkd around the city and went to subi and then to serena's house..

it was so fun.. as in, celebrating that exams are over..

hwahaha..

we took pictures when we were in myers.. so funny..

BEN and the MYER lady.. getting married !!

ME and MONA with the MYER lady.. she's so creepy.. !!

this one wasnt at MYER.. hehehe.. we were at subi park.. fun fun.. wasting time there.. ^^

ME and BEN at subi park.. bored.. hehehe...

ASIANS.. !! except for the whte asian, BEN.. mhuahuahuauha.. we had fun thou.. ^^

huuaahh.. so fuunn... but next week, skool starts agenn.. oohh.. so bored of school.

holidays are in 4 weeks.

yea, juz cant wait for holz to come.. ^^

one's destiny

it's GOD'S plan..

our destinies have been set.
before we were born here..

world. life.
it's like a play.

my life is like a play..
i remembered all the dialogues..
and act..


those scenes are when we have our good times in life..

but when he says " Cut! "
i know i did sumthin wrong.


that is when we have our bad times in life..


we have to start the act, all over agen.
and juz try not to repeat the same fault..



life, never goes smoothly..

I DONT KNOW

umm,

riite now, i dunn believe that true love exists.
long distance relationship is not as easy as it is.
i thought, i cud get through it smoothly.
but problems keep coming..

i kno its hard to love someone that u cant see.
its hard to love someone that u cant talk to everyday.
its hard to love someone that is far away from u.

cant i juz love him??

deep down, it hurts me when i see his name on msn.
am i too afraid to say it?
or do i juz love him too much?


i dont know..

i juz dont know..

finally, i put something in this blog.. hwahahaha..

been so busy doin works.. examss !!

still have physics left thou.. still studyin..

its like the hardest subject ever.. !!

huhuhu..

this is how messy my table was when i studied G&T for exams.. of course, still have time to take picture.. hehehehe....

this was taken on the charity day. i forgot when, but it was fun !! tiring day after all. hahaha.. been walking around the school doin nothin.. umm and yea, we took this photo with the 'milk cow' and then this guy [the one on the right] joined me and lynh to take picture... me and lynh was like.. 'wat the hell?' apparently the photographer knew that he wasnt wanted to be in 'our' picture wit mr.Cow... mhuahuahua..

timezone photos of the mews and friends.. especially with the thai people.. !! missin them much !!! >.<

taken when we were sleepin over at lynh's house.. only me, lili, and lynh. mona cudnt come.. T.T we were webcaming wit mona at that time. but i think we finished so we took pictures.. hahaha... fun fun fun !!

edited this photo yesterday.. took me long time.. wkwkk.. iLoveMyMews ^^