I dont wanna hate anyone.

From Me to You ...

Dear my dearestsss...

Actually, i dont know what to write, i dont know what to say.
But i'll find the words that i want to tell you from the bottom of my heart :)

i miss all of you. I havent gone anywhere, but i already miss all of you so badly.
I have so much fun when you guys are around me, and i really hope that you do too when i'm around you.
I might have done things that made you all upset, angry, mad, annoyed or even disgusted. I'm truly sorry if i have :)

My days have been wonderful with you around. And i cant wait for you guys to all come back to Perth, and we will have lovely times together :)


Serena :

*Serena Yap Juan Lee*

It's the banana pose that you and I have :)

You'll always be that close to me, no matter how bad you get me annoyed :)

I smile genuinely to you, always will ..


You coloured my highschool life ..

I just love you so much~! :)

Thankyou for filling my life with your love and laughter. I've been emo at times and you are always there whenever I need you. I dont want highschool to end, bcoz i wont be seeing you everyday like i used to. I wont give you hugs everyday. I wont be calling your name in the morning everyday. Life from today onwards would be harder, but I know that we would still be there for each other, just like how we used to be in highschool. Thankyou my dear! I Love You! :)


Lili :

Now I know how important you are to me :)

I do like making funny faces, coz I love to see you laugh, even though you laugh in my face ..

You are random, but I think that's why I love you :)

This shows how much I love you! XD

Lili, you've been an amazing friend as far as I know. You're always there for me no matter what. You came to my house just because I was feeling emo again. You care about me even though I've hurt you in the past. I was stupid back then, not realising soon enough that I have an awesome friend who actually care for me more than any other friends before. You listen to my complaints about love, about how bad I got hurt. You were the one who cared the most when I was broken. Thankyou Lili~! I Love You! :)



Mona :

This is how we take pictures :)

Our attempt to be a gangstaaa :D


You are not heavy at all ~!!! hehehe


No one told you to kiss the ball. I know you wont do it again... :)

We always have good times together with the laughing hey :) You're a funny person who's often lost in convo. hehehe.. You're my gossip buddy on msn and suddenly i have this long massive convo with you about randoms. :P
You were once addicted to Hello Kitty so bad, and I think, the disease has gone, because now I am the one who has a Hello Kitty wallet. ehehehe.. Thankyou for making my highschool life wonderful.. I would miss having you in my English class where we just sit there and chit chat not doing any work. hehe.. I Love You~! :)



Velwin :

It's you, who can always make everyone laugh :)

It's also you, who always make weird poses with your face..

Velwin, you're a super funny person who can always make me and the rest of the people in this world laugh for your super lame jokes. You're a nice person with an awesome personality who takes awesome pictures with your super heavy camera. We dont have a single picture together, so I cant put any. hehehe.. We'll take some later :) You have been such a great friend with your straight forward advices which helps a lot and maybe I wouldnt have thought of things in some ways without some of your advices =] I still remember how we met, it was just not the right timing to meet a new friend. hahaha.. Yeahh, I was crying. But that time, I felt like even though I just met you, I trusted you and I could just tell you what happened. Thankyou for being such an awesome friend so far :)



Vincent :

It's Vincent, who doesn't mind getting his clothes dirty to take good pictures

And I dont think he minds getting his clothes dirty to pose for Velwin ...

I think you guys are each other's soulmate ;)

Lastly, I dont know why Serena's mum thought that you were my brother. I dont think we look that alike. ahaha~! :P

Vincent, you're a nice person, just like Velwin. hehehe.. Thankyou for listening to every things that I told you, whether it was important or just little things that're super random. :) Thanks for the awesome pictures that you took and thankyou for putting up with us. hehehe.. I had so much fun with you and the others, thankyou! :)


Elaine :

*YiLing Tan*

You were this close to me..

Remember how I love this picture so much?

We love taking pictures together :)

I love all of you...
Thankyou for everything you've done to my life :)
much love,
Eli

I will..

...try not to care
...try to stop loving you
...try to make myself happy.

...find the Mr Right someday in my life
...believe in God's plan
...stop thinking that you're the only one


because i know deep inside,
if our love was that easy for you to break,
then it wasnt love.
it was all just a game ....

We did it !

" Yes, we did it! :) "

* my sweetheart *

They coloured my high school life....

My Applic, Calculus and Chem buddy :)

When these smiles conquer all problems...

Try to spot the odd one out... :)

Wind doesn't get in the way, picture has to be taken! :)

When the good times roll...

We genuinely smile...

Serena and Eli will always find each other :)

These guys have made my classes full with awesomeness :)


Doesnt matter, yeah, it won't matter.
whether we'll see each other or not next year
one thing you need to know,
you're gonna be remembered coz you're here in my blog :)

My 2 years of high school here in Perth,
Shenton College that's full with its differences
have been awesome.
thanks to all of you

Everything is coming to an end,
but i know all those smiles wont end.
The smile of happiness, laughter, and love
which i will always remember.

Thanks for making my high school moments memorable :)

i will miss all of you
i love you all
xoxo

I DO

Days passed away
But this feeling still hasnt changed.
Bubbles of memories often come by..
Popping the moments,
moments of happiness..

I saw you,
you were so close, you were so real.
For that moment, i know i miss you, i know i love you, still..
I felt my heart jumping yet aching at the same time.
I have a smile curved on my face,
I wanted to reach you, I wanted to hold you in my arms..
Just like those days,
just like how we were..

I stepped away from you,
I walked away.
But one thing I knew,
you've been inside, safe in my heart for such a long time already.

You've might not noticed, might not have realised,
this feeling i have is just for you,
just for you..

Life goes on no matter what,
so does your life, so does my life.
But I've always wanted to know,
do you still love me?
Do you ever miss me?
Do the bubbles of memories pop in your mind?
Do you ever miss "US" ?

I do..

To let go....

To let go doesnt mean to stop caring,
To let go is to learn that there's something beyond.
To let go means accepting reality..
To let go is loving more, because you only want the best..!

:)

thanx to Ega, my friend :)

Wait for You :)

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?


So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be


So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
I told you what it is & it just ain't like that

Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.


Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough


So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for youIf you think
I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be


Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

emotions are so hard to control
yet so easy to be shown.

i just wanna learn how to control those feelings.
i wanna grow up.

i dont wanna sit there staring at my phone waiting for it to lite up.
showing a message has been received.
no.. to sad to live a life that way ay..

i kno i have something better to do.
i just dont know wat it is.

coz seriously,
everything i do, no matter how busy i get,
i have u in my mind.


the ways how we think are different.
i'm pretty sure i know that.
and uhm.
yeah.
why is it so hard for me to understand it.
coz u're in my heart, just like a tattoo :)


oh weellsss...
i'll have to live with it. i've chosen the path to be with u.
i'll support wat u've chosen...

Term 3

this term is gonna be CRAZY !

i'm telling u, my lovely blog.
i dont think i wud have as much time for u now.
i wont write as much blog posts as i did.
obviously.
this term mis driving me INSANE !


there's hell a lot of stuff to do
i mite write something, just to cool my brain off.
hehehe..

it's like burniinngg...
and heating up..
and gonna explodee..
that's how bad it is. hahha..

well well..



leavers jumper was a disasterrr...
i think the non yr 12s are like disgusted. LOL.
oh wellss..

100bux gone for the "shenton difference" leavers jumper.
hahaha.. yess lili.. wkwkwk.. [if u read this :P]


aarrghhh so much to doo..
i wish i cud complain.
but i just cudnt.. :(


hey bloggie..
hopefully everything i do NOW pays off at the end..
riite bloggie?
LOL, ure not gonna answer me r u?

OBVIOUSLY NOTT.
haha..

ohh, i'm such a devoo here.. o.O


10 more weeks..
and then prac exams and then mocks and then TEE.

bare with it eli!
u can (hopefully) do it !!
eheheh..
yes eli.
goodluck for you! ^^


and goodluck for u ko dio :)
hopefully everything pays off as well.
lovess you! <3




well then bloggie..
i shall go back to study.
brain's cooled off 30%
hahaha..

tooddlleesss... :)

love,
Eli.

What a feeling it is..

wat's with these feelings?
i just cant stay focus with wat i'm doing..
i somehow want to go to a place with peace and just quite.

maybe i cud just sit there and cry. LOL.
yes, random. but that's wat i feel.. i just want them to go out and dont come back.

i mite not understand wat other people's feelings
but everything seems to come back. the past is not letting me go.
it's been my shadow for months, almost a year.

the fear that i tried to ditch,
i dont think wud be completely ditched.
it's just gonna stay there, on the dark side..


feels like i'm still living in the past and waiting for the future to come......

i wanna get over it

i'm so confused and i'm so lost.
yes, hope it ends soon..
everything..

I'm BODOH :(

Eli thinks she needs to get used to her daily mistakes,
and other people's mistakes..

SEE THE WORLD AND FACE THE FACTS!


that she's not a year 11 student anymore..

Hanya Dirimu

Peluk aku, jangan lepaskan
Aku tak bisa tanpa dirimu
Dekap aku, agar tetap hangat
Biarkan aku merasakanmu

Seharusnya aku membuatmu bahagia
Dan tak pernah membuatmu menangis

Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Menghapus segala sedihku
Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Membuatku jadi diriku sendiri
Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Menjagaku dari ketakutanku
Hanya dirimu

Saat aku jatuh, kau di sini
Membantuku berdiri kembali
Saat aku butuh, kau di sini
Menjagaku dengan segenap hati

Aku tak akan membuatmu menangis lagi
Dan aku berjanji akan membuatmu bahagia
Sebahagia diriku bersamamu....

:)


:: From 17 Years of Love Song novel ::

-L.O.V.E-

means everything in everyone's life.
and when someone i love is not fit, weak or sick,
i just find it hard to concentrate on something.
there's this uncomfortable feeling deep inside that keeps me from being free on doing stuff.
not blaming it on the person. i just have that most of the time.

i dont want anything bad to happen. i want 'him' to get better.
and i believe that my prayer was heard. =]
i hope miracle could happen.. ^^


to someone i really love, ko dio..
i love you and i miss you..
glad to saw you today. ^^
mwaahh~
<3

Part 3

I'm just hoping for the best for :
calculus tomorrow
and
physics on friday. >.<

Part 2

chem is over baby~
ahuahuahua.. finally.. pheewww~
din do too well thou. T.T
which is such a shame coz i had like 3 days of study.. hehehe..
shud've used time wisely eli.. ckckck..


well then, calculus is next.. and then physics straight after.
baaddd combination i must say.. might stay after calc exam for physics.. if i can be bothered. LOL.

hoping for the best! ^_^


AND i met lili todaayyy! very very nice! xD
and serena as well of course. hahaha..
i saw you playing with ur pen serena! wkwkwk..
the turning pen between ur fingers... hmmm.. ahuahuauha..
it amazed me for like 3 seconds. AHUAHUAHUA..
so yeahh.. good luck for ur english tomorrow! ^^


lovess lovess... =]

and i miss ko dio so much >.<
get well soon koo !!!
GBu! ^^
mwah~

@_@

Chemistry is corrupting my mind..
Giving me headache..
And stressing me out..

Tomorrow's exam better seem easy after all these things..
*sigh*

It's the beginning..

yeh, and it's soon gonna end..

FIGHT FOR EXAMS!
GOODLUCK SERENA! =D

LOVESS... ^^


for lili and mona! gudluck for assignments! hehehe..
loveesss...! <3

Young Girl Meets Love

I only saw you as a young child

And yet my heart lingered closer

Without me knowing

Little by little

I fell deeper

Even though i couldnt see it at first

I cant deny that my heart

Is driving me crazy...

I know i'm bad

But i cant let you go

Let me have your name, the memories of you

Come into my heart Please help me

I come to you with love..

You saw me only as a child

And yet i linger closer

Without me knowing my steps

Walk, little by little, to you

Even though i try to stop myself

The heart that i cant lie to

Is driving me crazy

I know i'm bad

But i cant let you go

Even though i know that

You only see me as a child

Even though i cant speak, know of this day

When i came to your love..

Again, come closer to me

Come again closer to me

For us,

Now, let us forgot

Both our pain

So that i can s mile

In your presence, next to you

Come into my heart

Be my everything

S that i can dream happy dreams

Be my love....

Hunnie,

it's ok to be sad.. :)
i might not know how u feel..
but i know that i'm here for u if u need me..
anytime...

^^


everything's gonna be ok.. :)
i love youu :D
mwaahh..

MISS YOU !

Merpati Basketball members ^^

yess,, i was invisible.. lol.. i was at the back so i sort of out of the pict. lol.

anyway, i'd like to tell you that i was the fourth head from the left. hahaha.. yeah.. only half of my head.. ckckck.. how sad.. =(

but yeahh.. miss these moments and place and friends and coaches.. >.<

from left to right :

- Lia 1 :: Marissa :: Nesia :: Eli :: Grace :: Lia 2 :: Christine :: Ovi :: Carla :: Michelle :: Devi -

:)

Dedicated to AYU =D

AYUU !!
Happy Birthday yaahhh... =D

moga2:
panjang umurr..
tambah cantikk..
tambah baekk..
tambah pinterrr..
tambah hebat maen basket'naa..

umm.. truz..

jgn tambah tinggi tapii.. hahaha..
nti yg laen ke balap tinggi'na.. wkwkwk..

anywayyss..
happy birthday!!! ^^

sweet 17 nie yee... ahuahuahua.. uda tua lho yuu.. wkwkwk.
ati2 keriput.. ahuahuahuahua... =P

wish u all the best!
kangeeennnnnn.... >.<
muahh.. ^^

Yoo girls!

i feel like going back to the olden days..
where there are less works and more available time for me to hang out with the girls..
sad that yr 12 is here already.. we're nearly half way thru..

really wanna finish high skool.
yet after graduating, i'll miss the moments where the teachers give extensions. :)
and how we spend hours at skool with friends, laughing together, being so loud together..
as well as bithcing about other people together.. lol.
i know that is mean. but yeah..
u're not that innocent!

so yeah..
hard life is waiting.. i know..
i'll just prepare things more..
and i need my girlssss to cheer up my days.. :D


love youu.. =)

=)

better not to say it.. =)
loll


sumtimes i wish that i could be the old me in some situations. :)
dont think that's gonna happen.. so i'll just let it gooo.. ahuahuahua.


nitez everyone..
ciao..

~~~~ ^_^ ~~~~~

happy 5th month anniv my hunn bunn! :D
yeah, as u know.. i love you so muucchhh...

and it's getting bigger and bigger and bigger on every time that we spend together.. ^^
i lovee youuu...


oh yeah.. u smelt so good today!
hehehe.. XD
mwahh

When Love Comes.....

When Love commeesss,,,
it's just unavoidable.. ^^

i just hate yr 12..
stealing my sleeping time..
T.T

...i'm sorry that i'm not who i was...

what i had in the past, made me realised how silly i was..
hurting and waiting for nothing.

i am still, however, not over the pain of how it felt
of being left out and ignored..

i just dont want this to happen agen..
i dont want that silly-ness happen to come ever agen in my life..

maybe i wud do such things agen..
coz i'm just a fool who can love someone
truly....

i felt stupid with wat i did in the past..
apologizing for something that i din do..
i do regret that..
i gave too much chances..
wasted my time for such things..
waiting for something that wudn come..



i kno aye.
i'm talking about the past.
i'm not over it.. not over the pain yet.
sumthing just reminded me about those things..
the feelings came up..
it hurts :

it's burning in there..
i can feel the heat in my eyes..
and the tears just rolled down..

oh wellss.. that's how my life goes..
dreams, will just be dreams..


agen,
i'm sorry for wat i've done wrong..
it's just the pathetic me...
with all my heart full of you.. Dio.. :)

YR 12

skool days have started a week ago and yr 12 is such a challenge in my life. lol.

anyway, it's hard and needs a lot of works to be done. tests and assignments are coming up.
so yeah busy busy busy..


i'm giving my condolences to those victims who have lost their homes and/or families & friends in the bushfire disaster.. GBU all...

Happy Hours! 1.

coming soon for more :)

new activities...

since i'm officially bak in perth on the 30th of jan 2009,
i'll have new activities starting tomorrow..
new busy-ness..

want some more holidays..
cant wait till next december...
even me n ko dio wont be together for about a month i think.. T.T

oh well, as long as he's happy with his trip..
oh please, he will.. hehehe..
so yeah,, i'd be happy for him..^^


anyway,,
planning to have a hairdressing and make-up lessons in surabaya for this summer holidays.. =)
lookin forward for it.. :D



hmm.. i feel something's different..
or maybe it's just me.. pfftt... :P