I miss YOU deeply

I still remember the times where you were always there for me
I still remember how it felt like to have you
I still remember how much love you gave me
I still remember the moment you first confessed to me

It all echoed in my head
Echoed in my heart and flashbacks started to play..

I miss having you with me, cheering me up all the way 'cause you've never liked seeing me frown. I miss holding you're hands whenever I walk beside you. I miss the comfy hugs you gave me whenever I wasnt at ease. I miss your smile that even without any words, I knew you were saying " it's gonna be alright (: ". I miss your funny cute lovely text messages that turned my cloudy day into a bright awesome day.

I miss your presence in my life. I miss you. I miss you deeply.

It's Been a While ...

... since my last 17

the moment in life where you are seen as a young adult

the moment where I feel sweet & grown up

... since you left my life

the heart has been empty since the day you went away

wait, NO

you're shadow is still inside, just a black and white memory

colouring my days with sadness

... since I last found my happiness

the girls of my comfort zone

the only place where I know they would always have a smile for me

no matter how broken I am, they will always have their most welcome

... since I know I survived

seeing you walk away was the hardest goodbye

the falling tears couldn't represent how broken this poor girl was

wondering why you left behind the memories so easily

left this heart wanders with no direction

broken, and empty

... since I can smile and move on

realising that you are no longer a world to me

made my most sweetest smile fade away

but life has to move on

you have, and so it was my turn to start smiling like how I used to

... since my new life has begun

no loneliness but a lot of happiness

I've opened a new book which is ready to be filled with new chapters

Welcome home,

Eli :)

ICYO SPORTSCAMP 2010

was a big decision whether to participate or just forget about it.
ended up going to it and HELL YEAH IT WAS AWESOME :)

unfortunately no pics coz i din bring a camera since its a sport event the whole day for 2days :)

as stated on facebook,
sun burnt, whole body aching and light bruises. but it was hella fun! :D

got new friends which is awesome
and most importantly, had heaps of fun! :)

A taste of 2010

A bit late to post about 2010, but oh wells, better than nothing :)

2010 would be awesome.
new friends, new life, new self.
but of course not forgeting the old ones..

i still love my high school friends.
they're the ones who care about me the most,
who would always back me up,
who would always be there to listen to all my problems
who would always be ready to pick up the whole group
who would always be the one to get picked on =]

im always sad whenever i look back at those pictures, at those moments and at those wonderful smiles that we had when life wasnt that complicated.

im happy how we are still in touch with each other even though i cant see your faces everyday like i used to.
i'm happy how we can still have fun no matter how many assignments or work each of us have to do.
i'm happy that we're all together again :)

a friend of mine told me,
"wow, its so good that you still keep in touch with your high school friends!"

i just smiled :)
a smile that contains a meaning.
every problems that my friends and i have gone through, made our bonds stronger.
as each of us now,
we can never totally have fun when one of us is missing.

and finally we did have fun bcoz all of us were there,
camwhoring and played a game with weird positions..
no awkwardness, no embarassment, nothing..

we're just so close to each other that nothing seem to be impossible :)


on the other hand, im loving my new life as well ..
the amount of new friends that i have, is way far from my expectation.
but im happy being around them =]
the sillyness, the stupidity, the smartness and the weird and awkward moments.

even so, the 4 of yous are still my number one,
Serena, Lili, Mona, Chenny :)

I dont wanna hate anyone.

From Me to You ...

Dear my dearestsss...

Actually, i dont know what to write, i dont know what to say.
But i'll find the words that i want to tell you from the bottom of my heart :)

i miss all of you. I havent gone anywhere, but i already miss all of you so badly.
I have so much fun when you guys are around me, and i really hope that you do too when i'm around you.
I might have done things that made you all upset, angry, mad, annoyed or even disgusted. I'm truly sorry if i have :)

My days have been wonderful with you around. And i cant wait for you guys to all come back to Perth, and we will have lovely times together :)


Serena :

*Serena Yap Juan Lee*

It's the banana pose that you and I have :)

You'll always be that close to me, no matter how bad you get me annoyed :)

I smile genuinely to you, always will ..


You coloured my highschool life ..

I just love you so much~! :)

Thankyou for filling my life with your love and laughter. I've been emo at times and you are always there whenever I need you. I dont want highschool to end, bcoz i wont be seeing you everyday like i used to. I wont give you hugs everyday. I wont be calling your name in the morning everyday. Life from today onwards would be harder, but I know that we would still be there for each other, just like how we used to be in highschool. Thankyou my dear! I Love You! :)


Lili :

Now I know how important you are to me :)

I do like making funny faces, coz I love to see you laugh, even though you laugh in my face ..

You are random, but I think that's why I love you :)

This shows how much I love you! XD

Lili, you've been an amazing friend as far as I know. You're always there for me no matter what. You came to my house just because I was feeling emo again. You care about me even though I've hurt you in the past. I was stupid back then, not realising soon enough that I have an awesome friend who actually care for me more than any other friends before. You listen to my complaints about love, about how bad I got hurt. You were the one who cared the most when I was broken. Thankyou Lili~! I Love You! :)



Mona :

This is how we take pictures :)

Our attempt to be a gangstaaa :D


You are not heavy at all ~!!! hehehe


No one told you to kiss the ball. I know you wont do it again... :)

We always have good times together with the laughing hey :) You're a funny person who's often lost in convo. hehehe.. You're my gossip buddy on msn and suddenly i have this long massive convo with you about randoms. :P
You were once addicted to Hello Kitty so bad, and I think, the disease has gone, because now I am the one who has a Hello Kitty wallet. ehehehe.. Thankyou for making my highschool life wonderful.. I would miss having you in my English class where we just sit there and chit chat not doing any work. hehe.. I Love You~! :)



Velwin :

It's you, who can always make everyone laugh :)

It's also you, who always make weird poses with your face..

Velwin, you're a super funny person who can always make me and the rest of the people in this world laugh for your super lame jokes. You're a nice person with an awesome personality who takes awesome pictures with your super heavy camera. We dont have a single picture together, so I cant put any. hehehe.. We'll take some later :) You have been such a great friend with your straight forward advices which helps a lot and maybe I wouldnt have thought of things in some ways without some of your advices =] I still remember how we met, it was just not the right timing to meet a new friend. hahaha.. Yeahh, I was crying. But that time, I felt like even though I just met you, I trusted you and I could just tell you what happened. Thankyou for being such an awesome friend so far :)



Vincent :

It's Vincent, who doesn't mind getting his clothes dirty to take good pictures

And I dont think he minds getting his clothes dirty to pose for Velwin ...

I think you guys are each other's soulmate ;)

Lastly, I dont know why Serena's mum thought that you were my brother. I dont think we look that alike. ahaha~! :P

Vincent, you're a nice person, just like Velwin. hehehe.. Thankyou for listening to every things that I told you, whether it was important or just little things that're super random. :) Thanks for the awesome pictures that you took and thankyou for putting up with us. hehehe.. I had so much fun with you and the others, thankyou! :)


Elaine :

*YiLing Tan*

You were this close to me..

Remember how I love this picture so much?

We love taking pictures together :)

I love all of you...
Thankyou for everything you've done to my life :)
much love,
Eli

I will..

...try not to care
...try to stop loving you
...try to make myself happy.

...find the Mr Right someday in my life
...believe in God's plan
...stop thinking that you're the only one


because i know deep inside,
if our love was that easy for you to break,
then it wasnt love.
it was all just a game ....