What a feeling it is..

wat's with these feelings?
i just cant stay focus with wat i'm doing..
i somehow want to go to a place with peace and just quite.

maybe i cud just sit there and cry. LOL.
yes, random. but that's wat i feel.. i just want them to go out and dont come back.

i mite not understand wat other people's feelings
but everything seems to come back. the past is not letting me go.
it's been my shadow for months, almost a year.

the fear that i tried to ditch,
i dont think wud be completely ditched.
it's just gonna stay there, on the dark side..


feels like i'm still living in the past and waiting for the future to come......

i wanna get over it

i'm so confused and i'm so lost.
yes, hope it ends soon..
everything..

I'm BODOH :(

Eli thinks she needs to get used to her daily mistakes,
and other people's mistakes..

SEE THE WORLD AND FACE THE FACTS!


that she's not a year 11 student anymore..

Hanya Dirimu

Peluk aku, jangan lepaskan
Aku tak bisa tanpa dirimu
Dekap aku, agar tetap hangat
Biarkan aku merasakanmu

Seharusnya aku membuatmu bahagia
Dan tak pernah membuatmu menangis

Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Menghapus segala sedihku
Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Membuatku jadi diriku sendiri
Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Menjagaku dari ketakutanku
Hanya dirimu

Saat aku jatuh, kau di sini
Membantuku berdiri kembali
Saat aku butuh, kau di sini
Menjagaku dengan segenap hati

Aku tak akan membuatmu menangis lagi
Dan aku berjanji akan membuatmu bahagia
Sebahagia diriku bersamamu....

:)


:: From 17 Years of Love Song novel ::

-L.O.V.E-

means everything in everyone's life.
and when someone i love is not fit, weak or sick,
i just find it hard to concentrate on something.
there's this uncomfortable feeling deep inside that keeps me from being free on doing stuff.
not blaming it on the person. i just have that most of the time.

i dont want anything bad to happen. i want 'him' to get better.
and i believe that my prayer was heard. =]
i hope miracle could happen.. ^^


to someone i really love, ko dio..
i love you and i miss you..
glad to saw you today. ^^
mwaahh~
<3

Part 3

I'm just hoping for the best for :
calculus tomorrow
and
physics on friday. >.<

Part 2

chem is over baby~
ahuahuahua.. finally.. pheewww~
din do too well thou. T.T
which is such a shame coz i had like 3 days of study.. hehehe..
shud've used time wisely eli.. ckckck..


well then, calculus is next.. and then physics straight after.
baaddd combination i must say.. might stay after calc exam for physics.. if i can be bothered. LOL.

hoping for the best! ^_^


AND i met lili todaayyy! very very nice! xD
and serena as well of course. hahaha..
i saw you playing with ur pen serena! wkwkwk..
the turning pen between ur fingers... hmmm.. ahuahuauha..
it amazed me for like 3 seconds. AHUAHUAHUA..
so yeahh.. good luck for ur english tomorrow! ^^


lovess lovess... =]

and i miss ko dio so much >.<
get well soon koo !!!
GBu! ^^
mwah~