emotions are so hard to control
yet so easy to be shown.

i just wanna learn how to control those feelings.
i wanna grow up.

i dont wanna sit there staring at my phone waiting for it to lite up.
showing a message has been received.
no.. to sad to live a life that way ay..

i kno i have something better to do.
i just dont know wat it is.

coz seriously,
everything i do, no matter how busy i get,
i have u in my mind.


the ways how we think are different.
i'm pretty sure i know that.
and uhm.
yeah.
why is it so hard for me to understand it.
coz u're in my heart, just like a tattoo :)


oh weellsss...
i'll have to live with it. i've chosen the path to be with u.
i'll support wat u've chosen...

Term 3

this term is gonna be CRAZY !

i'm telling u, my lovely blog.
i dont think i wud have as much time for u now.
i wont write as much blog posts as i did.
obviously.
this term mis driving me INSANE !


there's hell a lot of stuff to do
i mite write something, just to cool my brain off.
hehehe..

it's like burniinngg...
and heating up..
and gonna explodee..
that's how bad it is. hahha..

well well..



leavers jumper was a disasterrr...
i think the non yr 12s are like disgusted. LOL.
oh wellss..

100bux gone for the "shenton difference" leavers jumper.
hahaha.. yess lili.. wkwkwk.. [if u read this :P]


aarrghhh so much to doo..
i wish i cud complain.
but i just cudnt.. :(


hey bloggie..
hopefully everything i do NOW pays off at the end..
riite bloggie?
LOL, ure not gonna answer me r u?

OBVIOUSLY NOTT.
haha..

ohh, i'm such a devoo here.. o.O


10 more weeks..
and then prac exams and then mocks and then TEE.

bare with it eli!
u can (hopefully) do it !!
eheheh..
yes eli.
goodluck for you! ^^


and goodluck for u ko dio :)
hopefully everything pays off as well.
lovess you! <3




well then bloggie..
i shall go back to study.
brain's cooled off 30%
hahaha..

tooddlleesss... :)

love,
Eli.

What a feeling it is..

wat's with these feelings?
i just cant stay focus with wat i'm doing..
i somehow want to go to a place with peace and just quite.

maybe i cud just sit there and cry. LOL.
yes, random. but that's wat i feel.. i just want them to go out and dont come back.

i mite not understand wat other people's feelings
but everything seems to come back. the past is not letting me go.
it's been my shadow for months, almost a year.

the fear that i tried to ditch,
i dont think wud be completely ditched.
it's just gonna stay there, on the dark side..


feels like i'm still living in the past and waiting for the future to come......

i wanna get over it

i'm so confused and i'm so lost.
yes, hope it ends soon..
everything..

I'm BODOH :(

Eli thinks she needs to get used to her daily mistakes,
and other people's mistakes..

SEE THE WORLD AND FACE THE FACTS!


that she's not a year 11 student anymore..

Hanya Dirimu

Peluk aku, jangan lepaskan
Aku tak bisa tanpa dirimu
Dekap aku, agar tetap hangat
Biarkan aku merasakanmu

Seharusnya aku membuatmu bahagia
Dan tak pernah membuatmu menangis

Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Menghapus segala sedihku
Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Membuatku jadi diriku sendiri
Karena hanya kaulah yang bisa
Menjagaku dari ketakutanku
Hanya dirimu

Saat aku jatuh, kau di sini
Membantuku berdiri kembali
Saat aku butuh, kau di sini
Menjagaku dengan segenap hati

Aku tak akan membuatmu menangis lagi
Dan aku berjanji akan membuatmu bahagia
Sebahagia diriku bersamamu....

:)


:: From 17 Years of Love Song novel ::

-L.O.V.E-

means everything in everyone's life.
and when someone i love is not fit, weak or sick,
i just find it hard to concentrate on something.
there's this uncomfortable feeling deep inside that keeps me from being free on doing stuff.
not blaming it on the person. i just have that most of the time.

i dont want anything bad to happen. i want 'him' to get better.
and i believe that my prayer was heard. =]
i hope miracle could happen.. ^^


to someone i really love, ko dio..
i love you and i miss you..
glad to saw you today. ^^
mwaahh~
<3