hair change!!

whooaaa... hair changing.. except for serena.. hahaha..

hers looks the same.. but it's nicer now.. :D

anyways... mona doesnt like hers. hahaha.. coz of her short fringe, and bcoz of the asian guy who blow-dried her hair.. wkwkwk.. she sed 'the curls look like old woman's curls' =P

but yehh... cant find a hair dresser that suits us perfectly.. soo,, juz hope it'll grow REALLY FAST and will juz go better and better when it's longer.. mehehehe...

so here's a pict.. of all of us mostly.. ^^

-Mona-Lili-Serena-Eli-

and here's sme of my own narcism.. mahahahaha..
oh welll.. but yehh.. here it is.. ;p

mehehehe.. yes, a bit weird i kno.. but so far, i'm trying to like it.. hahaha.. 50 bucks man.. hell expensive. so yehh.. needs to like it.. =P
and the fringe is too short as well. i need to grow it longeerr... :(
common hair! grow fast!~

L-O-V-E

L .... is for the way you look at mee. . .

O .... is for the only one I see. . .

V .... is very, very. . . extraordinary. . .

E .... is even more than anyone that you adore. . .

yess ;)

:)

it's unbelievable.. so unbelievable..

to finally be in love.. somewhere i'd never thought i'd be..

i've never knew what love actually was..

until he came.. and brought me the love that i've always wondered..

day by day.. the emptiness of my life is filled.. the thirst, and the sadness..

it's all gone.. he brought up something new.. something warm.. something.... .. . . .

it's totally different..

the love that he has, tells me wat 'love' actually means.

it's something that is SO BEAUTIFUL.. and it's so unbelievable..

he's changed my whole life.. from sadness, emptiness, and heartbreak into a whole new beginning..

no more sadness, no more emptiness and no more HEARTBREAK..

i... LOVE hiim..

i dont want him to go away from me..

i dont want him to leave me..

i dont want him to be sad..

and it's so unbelievable.. to finally be in love..

somewhere i never thought i'd be..

now i see.. wat LOVE means....

:)

..3 words..

i've never realised that the words
*i dont care*
wud have the same impact as
*i love you*




3 words..
that most people use which can make whom they love cry or touched is I LOVE YOU.
apparently.. I DONT CARE can make someone felt touched. And ended up with tears..




But *i love you* is still the magic 3 words
that will make whom u love feel touched.. :)

but i think, there's another magic words

that will make ur lover feel touched immediately,

hehehe...

:)

. . . .

sick agen.. gaahh.. hate it..
hikz..

A real boyfriend wud do this to you!

.........
.....
...
When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]
When she stares at your lips - [Kiss her]
When she pushes you or hits you - [Grab her and don’t let go]
When she starts cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]
When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignores you - [Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]
When she's scared - [Protect her]
When she lays her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steals your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]
When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she say's that she likes you - [she really does more than you could understand]
When she grabs your hands - [Hold hers and play with her fingers]
When she bumps into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]
WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]
When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- DON'T let her have the last word
- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her
- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it
- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
&& When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is :
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

^_^

Back to

2006,


Think I had a feeling for him, but I've never had the guts to talk to him. I was always nervous and so none of what I wanted to say cud come out off my mouth. Well, he was in my church, and we were in the same kind of organization. not the choir. And so we always had our meeting in the 1st and 3rd sundays of the month.



"I liked him"



But I knew that I wudnt or cudnt get his attention. In every meeting, I've always wanted him to come. But sometimes he didnt. And so it was a normal day for me. When he came, I've always looked at him just for an instant. Just to see him. and then, I turned my face around, and smiled. =]




And then, we had our practice. It was just a routine for the next saturday/sunday. Even i seemed all busy with my friends, I kept looking around, just to know where he is. And when I found him with his friends, I went back talking and laughing with my friends. Seriously, looking at him even just for an instant made me feel... You know.. Happy, and just good feelings everywhere.



But deep inside, I knew, didnt matter how much I liked him, it wudnt grew. since I didnt talk to him. We were that close, in the same religion, same church, same organization, in the same place for mostly every sunday. No communication at all. He used to sit at the back of the church, with his friends. and I? I sat at the front with my friends and got scolded coz we were noisy! LoL.


I kept wondering, when wud he talk to me first? Or shud I open the conversation? But I wasnt that brave. Talking face to face, with the guy I liked. So I shut my mouth and decided not to talk to him.

The feeling was still there.. But none of my friends knew. Only me, mum, and GOD.


Until...



The day when we had our trip. I forgot where we went. I think it was Candi Dasa. Cant remember. But yeah.. I was all excited.. We got to go trip with all members. And we were gonna have fun there. I was waiting inside.. With my friends reading comics I guess. Or else it was a novel.
Then he came, with his girlfriend. I cudnt say anything, cud I? I was only someone he knows. Not even his friend. And so I just smiled, and whispered to my friend. "That's his girlfriend?"
She sed she didnt know. So I kept quiet, shook my shoulder, smiled to myself, tryin to feel a bit of pain that was inside, and continued reading.



I didnt cry, but I was sad. there was nothing I cud've done. I just sat there with my friends, and talked. But the trip, was gud. Didnt want to see him for that day. Must've known why, riite..? So I just played with the others..



Since then, I've decided to let that feeling go.. Not expecting it to come back since I've seen him so happy with her. Wished them happy together, and wished that that girl was the best for him.


Me? I just lived my life.. Still went to church every sunday.. And went to every meeting. And slowly, that feeling went away...............