it's been a while...

it's always in my mind.
and it's not how i want it to be.
it hasnt been my day for so long.

i missed him sending me messages,
of how am i going..

it's been a while,
since he sed 'i love you'
to me..

it's been a while,
since he's happy..

it's been a while,
since i'm happy..

and it's been a while,
since i saw you..

is this how u feel

when ur heart's broken into pieces?

when u hope everything will be gud agen?

when u wait for sumthing that u're not even sure of?

when u wait for an answer?

when u wait for someone to say he/she loves you?

it's been a tough day for me.
seeing the guy i love has always been in a bad mood..
how every little things he does can affect my mood..
how his mood affecting mine easily..
and hurts me so easily..


if only,
i can see..
juz in my dream..
who will i be, later in the future..
is he nice?
is he caring?
does he love me as much as i love him?
it takes time..


this is my life riite?
it is GOD's plan riite?
watever he's planned,
it will all turn great in the end..


even, i complain everytime
even i get angry
even i am upset,


HE will always love me..
HE is the one who will never leave me..
HE knows wat i'm thinking,
HE knows wat i'm doing,
HE knows why i'm writing this blog..

I LOVE JESUS MORE THAN I THOUGHT